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Saturday, June 9th, 2007
11:15 pm
I leave for the Canadaz on Tuesday, and I won't be back until September 2nd.

Zut zut.
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Ira Vehementi
Friday, December 15th, 2006
6:36 pm
Dallas comes tomorrow.

Everybody congratulate and wish me well.
Ira Vehementi
Saturday, October 7th, 2006
8:00 am
fubar10734: You have hired a spy to get information on 8 ball at the cost of $56000000. Here is the info he retrieved:
Strength: 2119510
Speed: 2398552
Defense: 1792711
Employment Skills: 690707
Brain Power: 4136.000000
Here is his/her inventory.
fubar10734: Patriot $2000000000 $2000000000
Patriot $2000000000 $2000000000
Large medic pack x429 $5750 $2466750
Morphine x172 $4000000 $688000000
SU37 Terminator $2800000000 $2800000000
Dual Samurai Swords

fubar10734: Mushrooms x4 $0 $0
Snack Cake x7 $0 $0
White Chocolate kisses x6 $0 $0
Chocolate Bars x9 $5 $45
Moon Pie x9
Ira Vehementi
Thursday, September 21st, 2006
11:58 pm
Fill me outCollapse )
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Thursday, August 24th, 2006
6:39 am
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Tuesday, July 18th, 2006
10:55 am
I'm outtie.

current mood: nervous
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Monday, July 10th, 2006
9:08 am
You know, I really should be in bed, but I just can't sleep.

I'm going to Canada again in 8 days time, and I'm getting excited.

I miss Dal more than I could express, and I feel really miserable without her sometimes. It's awful.

I really should have been in bed about two hours ago, but I couldn't sleep because the excitement is a bit much. I'm going there now.

Remember the first dance we shared?
Recall the night you melted my ugliness away?
The night you left with a kiss so kind
Only a send of beauty left behind

Ah dear friend I remember the night
The moon and the dreams we shared
Your trembling paw in my hand
Dreaming of that northern land
Touching me with a kiss of a beast

I know my dreams are made of you
Of you and only for you
Your ocean pulls me under
Your voice tears me asunder
Love me before the last petal falls

As a world without a glance
Of the ocean's fair expanse
Such the world would be
If no love did flow in thee
But as my heart is occupied
Your love for me now has to die
Forgive me I need more than you can offer me

Didn't you read the tale
Where happily ever after was to kiss a frog?
Don't you know this tale
In which all I ever wanted
I'll never have
For who could ever learn to love a beast?

However cold the wind and rain
I'll be there to ease your pain
However cruel the mirrors of sin
Remember beauty is found within

PS: I am gay.
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Ira Vehementi
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
8:21 am
A Siren from the deep
Came to me, sang my name, my longing
Still I write my songs
About that dream of mine
Worth everything I may ever be

The child will be born again
That siren carried him to me
First of them true loves, singing on the shoulders
of an angel without care for love and loss

Yeah. Not much has gone on. There's talk of me going up to Canada again.

Until next time!

I love Dallas. (even though she doesn't like me)

current mood: sleepy
Ira Vehementi
Sunday, March 19th, 2006
8:53 am
Four months ago, I was dumped by one of my girlfriends.
From: Nostix | Posted: 3/18/2006 11:50:54 PM | Message Detail
Six days later, she died in a car crash, in which she was a drunk driver.

That's life's way of saying you don't mess with Nostix.

"Nostix is half man, half amazing and 10% unicorn" - shiftyeyesdogg
From: shiftyeyesdogg | Posted: 3/18/2006 11:51:55 PM | Message Detail
The morbid humor in this topic tickles me.
Ira Vehementi
Sunday, December 18th, 2005
3:40 am
Off to Canada, folks. Gonna be gone for three weeks.

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Friday, November 11th, 2005
2:16 am
So, she's helping her friend move. And, at the moment, her friend has no phone and no computer.

I won't see her until Saturday.

I'm lonely. =(
Ira Vehementi
Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
1:51 am
I'm going to Canada on December 18th.


Here I come, Dal.
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Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
2:16 am
So, as I sit here at this hour of the early morn, what do I think about? Ahh, random nonsense, things to occupy my time, or trite little fantasies. However, the past few nights, I've been really rather ... bleak. See, it all started a few months ago. August 25th - the day Dallas left. The typical problems arose: tears, anguish, loneliness, depression. You get the picture.

However, while both of us have (I assume) recovered, there's one thing I still miss: Every night, when we would part our ways and go to bed, and I would tuck her in. I'd pull the blanket over her, hug and kiss her good night, and shut her door as she went to sleep. Out of each day's highlight, that was probably the very best one. I'd kill to have her back here/me be up there just to tuck her in again at night, and play that some routine day in and day out.

I can't believe how much I miss her. Dammit all.
Ira Vehementi
Friday, October 28th, 2005
6:00 pm
This Is My Life, Rated
Take the Rate My Life Quiz
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Saturday, October 1st, 2005
9:21 pm
Dal made an interesting point a few minutes ago - I update for the first time in months, and it's over a song. That's just not right.

So, what's been going on? Eh, well, nothing, really. School is starting again, and that's just bullshit. I don't need no damn schoolin'.

Anyway, Dal and me ...

Things have been going great. The experiance while she was here was absolutely unforgettable, and I miss holding her everyday and everynight, tucking her into bed, and her waking me up by jumping on me. I want her to come back so badly. I can't believe how much I miss her. I really do love you, Dal. You're everything to me. I may drive you nuts everyday, but I mean well.

Now I suppose what's left to do is wait for December for my trip to Canuckland. I wonder if I'll freeze to death, or be eaten by a polar bear? Possibly hacked to bits by a lumberjack. Or maybe a chesterfield will fall on me. I don't know.
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2:03 am
There is a demon
An evil mind
Inside us
Oh I know, I know
We all know the rules
When water will be shed
The wicked witch is…

This is the end of all the miracles
Farewell to you yellow brick road

Everything she is asking for
It all belongs to her
Now she’s gone into nothingness
There she waits

Still I can hear her singing in the room
In the room I know she’s gone
I’ve thought “She’ll never fail,
All magic will be gone
The day she’ll melt away”

This is the end of all the miracles
Still I hear her singing in the dark
Truth has changed, her voice it stays the same
Farewell to you yellow brick road
Still I hear her singing in the dark
While time goes on her voice will fade away

“They are all, they’re everything, they are mine
Silver shoes you’re mine, you are mine,
You are mine”

Hate will live on

This is the end of all the miracles
Farewell to you yellow brick road

The wicked witch is dead ...

I really like this song.

current mood: relaxed
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Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
4:10 pm
Oh my god she is in my house. She's using my shower. And she's hit me numerous times already.

Honestly, I'm a bit nervous, but I couldn't ask for anything greater.

I love her.
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Friday, June 3rd, 2005
11:30 pm
Holy crap. Dallas is coming. Dallas is coming here.

Her, mother, and father all planned this without my knowing.

Hohlee crayup.

current mood: shocked
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Saturday, May 28th, 2005
12:51 am
Oh, what to say, what to say ...

Well, things have been great, folks. Uneventful, but great. Been conversing with Dallas from sunrise to sunset. There's the occasional stand-off, but things are quickly resolved and things return to normal.

That's all there really is to say.

Watch out! Incoming corny song!

While the shadows rise and the ravens fly
To the silent wood of Kherd you come now
Memories, ride the silent dream
While the horizons fade to brown of new plains
And the elves of night now cross my way to my new dawn
And your heart is riding brave against the darkest shadowlord
I am here to await your soul


Wonderful, born of miracle
Light my goal to the crystal throne of angels
Fantasies, travelers of my dreams
Steal my essence to blend it with her breath
And the elves of night now cross my way to my new dawn
And your heart is riding brave against the darkest shadowlord
I am here to await your soul

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Ira Vehementi
Saturday, April 30th, 2005
12:37 am
A sucker for a lady.

She makes me get up at 8:45. Sick!

But I do it willingly. Sad.

Until next time, folks.

current mood: thankful
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Ira Vehementi
Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
1:34 am
My beautiful, yet limited, playlist;

Ira Vehementi
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
1:44 am
Airin 'the rose', Arwald 'the rock'
great example of pure love
Warrior of Ice thank you for all
from the creatures of the world

Eh, so I'm a bit corny. That's acceptable when you feel the way I do. I mean, have you ever felt that, even though there are some problems within, that everything is just as it should be? That every piece of the puzzle is falling into place, and Valhalla is within reach?

That's how I feel. And not just at this moment, no, but at every waking moment of the day. I finally feel happy.

I love you, Dal.

current mood: grateful
Ira Vehementi
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
1:25 am
Cold mystic night - it falls on the plain
On the grey mountains reigns now the shade
Angels of light, give them the faith
Time now has come
Dar-Kunor awaits

Yeah. Bed time.

I love you, Dallas. Eternally.

current mood: operatic
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Monday, March 28th, 2005
9:42 pm
Survey of the damnedCollapse )
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Sunday, March 27th, 2005
2:10 am
I should be in bed right now.

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